There’s something that made me so affected about your passing away. And I don’t know what that could be. I met you not too long ago and I can say from the bottom of my heart how beautiful you are as a person. I don’t know how well you lived your life and I have no idea what it took you to get pass through all life’s shits but I’m sure as hell you had fun with it.
You were young Johann. You were my age and I keep on wondering how it feels to be dead at 27. Did it hurt? Did it scare you? Did you struggle gasping your last breathe for air? I want to know but I don’t wanna die yet. I want to know how it feels to literally fight for your life but I don’t wanna lose it. Maybe so I will know what to do when it comes to me and there’s no turning back. Maybe so I will know how to deal with it as it appraoch me in the future. God, this is crazy. You were the last person I ever thought would die before me. Nuts.
I’m sure a lot of good things have been said about you and this post is not to do the same because I do not know you well enough to tell the world what I think you did in this life for your friends and family. This is just a simple note to remind myself that I met you one day in my life and realizing that you’re forever gone is one hell of a wake up call for me that, cliche as it may sound, life is indeed really short. That I could die tomorrow or the next day or who knows maybe while I’m writing this. That I must live now and forget what’s bothering me from my past or in the future.
This post maybe is just to share to those who never got to know you how cool you are as a friend. This is at least the best thing that I can do to tell the world that you are indeed a special person and how jolly and humble and funny you were when you were alive. I hope this makes you smile.
These are our funny Facebook conversation and this is how I will remember you.
Rest in peace, Johann. Be good, do well, have fun. 😀